Signs You May Have Experienced Satanic Ritual Abuse as a Child

WHY THIS PAGE?

God helped me discover many mysterious, painful truths about my past, and He healed me from them all. So when I was a counselor, I helped many bright, gifted, creative and resilient men and women identify the effects of trauma in their lives, including the effects of satanic ritual abuse. We gently uncovered truths that were always there waiting for the right time to be safely seen and healed.

SOMETIMES THE OUTCOME OF TRAUMA IS A BETTER LIFE & A RENEWED RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.

Traumatic events can significantly alter our lives because they happen for reasons beyond our understanding. There is a silver lining though. Trauma motivates us to seek answers about our past, our ancestry, and even about God that we never would’ve sought if we didn’t get hurt.

Healing trauma is a brave expedition. If you came here to heal, I’m proud of you for facing the difficult truths that so many people work hard to deny and push away. I pray you feel safe here, and that you’re encouraged that there’s a God who loves you. He led me to build this page for you, so you might heal.

WHAT IF I NEVER REMEMBER THE TRAUMA?

With trauma there’s often missing memories. And even if you remember, some memories are hard to prove. It’s ok for your past to remain a mystery. You can heal without remembering or proving all the details.

It’s ok for your past to remain a mystery. You can heal without remembering or proving all the details.

WHY USE A CHECKLIST?

A good tool for uncovering and healing buried trauma is a symptom checklist. A symptom checklist helps you see if you have signs of trauma, even if you don’t remember any specific traumatic events. So this is what I’ve created for you below. This checklist is meant to help the root of certain memories or life patterns be found.

If you discover or suspect ritual abuse, your trauma is not who you are! Do not let potential truths about your past or your ancestry shame you. Many children and adults suffer inexplicable events. Traumatic events have nothing to do with who you were born to become. The important thing is discovering only the parts of your past that will push you forward in your healing and redemption process. The idea is to heal and get on with your purpose in the world.

WHY DIDN’T SOMEBODY SAVE ME?

Every person in this world has a risen Savior, Yeshua, Jesus, who has already overcome the world, a Savior who sets us free. By receiving His free gift of salvation, you can be washed clean of your entire past forever, and walk in a brand new life.


WHY DO RITUAL ABUSES HAPPEN?

Rituals are based on lies. They attempt to separate humanity from the Savior God gave us. No ritual can separate a person from God. God has called all the world to Himself, every single person. Any person who wants salvation through Jesus the Messiah, they can be saved at any time. If you tell God you want Jesus as your risen Savior, you will be accepted by God, no matter what you’ve done in the past.

for, “Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.” – Romans 10:13

BE GENTLE WITH YOURSELF AS YOU INVESTIGATE YOUR PAST

One last thing that’s so important for you to hear. Please, as you investigate your past, especially if you suspect or remember being part of ritual abuse, church abuse, cults, or similar types of things, remember to take special tender care of yourself. If you experience any triggers like dissociation or fear as you read this page, take a break, rest and pray. Have someone trusted you can call on, or some prayers you can pray to help you through any tough moments. Let yourself take this slow. Treat yourself more kindly than normal, even if you initially seem fine.

If you have a saving relationship with Jesus Christ, ask Him to guard your eyes and heart and to lead you into all truth. If you don’t have a saving relationship with Jesus, there are prayers at the top of this page that you can pray to be saved right now today!


WOULDN’T I REMEMBER IT IF SOMETHING HUGE HAPPENED TO ME?

God designed our bodies and minds to put certain traumas away that would interrupt the normal function of our lives. Some events and experiences get filed away until we come to a better, safer time that we can process all that happened. It’s a natural human survival response to compartmentalize painful events. Sometimes the actual memories of these events get temporarily or permanently lost, but the physical, mental and emotional symptoms of the trauma tend to remain. This mechanism protects you and me.

If you don’t remember details of your past, but you see these signs of trauma in your thought life, emotional life, or your physical body, allow yourself to simply connect a few dots for the time being, and gradually let some fears and feelings release.

When you’re ready, take a look through the statements below. If many of these listed signs are true for you, it’s possible that you or someone in your bloodline MAY HAVE BEEN touched by trauma related to ritual initiation. 


CAN I FULLY AND PERMANENTLY HEAL FROM RITUAL ABUSE? 

Yes, you can completely heal. Sometimes validation of some of your life perspectives and views is all it takes to heal. Having validation can explain why some memories, triggers or thought patterns always mystified you. If you believe you’ve been exposed to ritual initiation of some kind, and you would like to pursue healing in a context of biblical faith, please make use of the resources below to support your healing journey. 

Signs You May Have Experienced Satanic Ritual Abuse or Ritual Initiation

• Have an inexplicable feeling that your family is dangerous, and feel uneasy with or inclined to escape from parents or siblings
• Feel inherently guilty but don’t know why
• “I don’t belong to my family, they are not my family, I must find my true family.”
• Have a sense of self-loathing and deserving to hate self
• Creeped out by churches, church basements, circles of chairs, altars
• The Bible seems like a foreign, dead book for empty religious puppets
• God is a concept that’s not that interesting, or I truly hate God.
• God is nonexistent or God can’t forgive me and doesn’t (could never) love me, no matter what the Bible says
• Feel detached from normal family relationships—with spouse, children, parents, or siblings
• Fear sex with loving spouse or find it traumatizing (can present along with strong sexual desires for immoral or dark sexual situations)
• View of God as abandoning, punishing or abusive
• Feelings of yuck or extreme disgust that rise up out of nowhere
• Fear my problems are too complex to be solved
• Do not trust counselors or doctors and determined to only trust self
• Keep much of my thought life secret or I will be attacked, judged, harmed
• Deep down I fear that someone will die if I tell my secrets
• Inner momentum to harm myself that is not coming from my own will or mind
• Suicide thoughts or triggers set off internally, automatically, unexpectedly
• Feel triggered by the name Jesus Christ or quotation of Scripture. Or generally repelled by mention of Jesus Christ
• Triggered by masks, clowns, costumes, holidays, crosses, uniforms, occult objects, occult stories, the feeling of being under influence of a drug, drum circles, blood, horror movies, certain dark artwork, etc.
• Comfortable with themes of death. No fear of death
• Feel lured by or fascinated with dark themes or pagan rituals
• Strongly identify as animal rights activist, vegan, advocate for victims of abuse and neglect, prisons, animal rescue, horrified by killing the innocent
• Strongly sympathetic to holocaust victims or rape/torture/violence victims in news stories
• Compelled to help & rescue others always, heart constantly breaks for others hurting, disabling empathy, feel responsible to save everyone from their hellish experiences
• Knives/guns are either extremely triggering or very compelling or both
• Have felt a partial pull to yield to what you know is evil, even where you know it is wrong
• Have had some desire to do what is forbidden (concupiscence), aka an enjoyment of sin or revenge
• There was incest, flirtation, sensual touch or sexual visitation by members of own family
• High level freemason in ancestry
• Roman Catholic / Jesuit family members
• High level status in entertainment, academia, medical, military, gov’t or political offices in family members
• Rumors of (or known) military secret projects, pedophilia, suicides, moguls or murder in ancestry

NEED HEALING?

Take advantage of these faith-based resources for healing and self-deliverance:

Deliverance Prayer for Victims of SRA, Eugenics, Mind Control

Deliverance from Stalking, Intimidation, Rage, Leviathan

Healing Library for Severe Oppressions

Deliverance from Soul Ties

50 Powerful Prayers for all Occasions

75 Self-Deliverance Recordings

Accurate Understanding of the Word of God

Healing Complex Trauma

Healing Generational Incest